project workload, class tests and workload, just simply paint my holiday black and white that i'd almost forgot how my weekends has used to be and how colorful they are(!!!) hang on there and everything will be over soon!:D
13:23♥
GIVE ME A BREAK!
mentally worn out.
1. NR, didnt even know what on heaven is a literature review. but whats more rushy now is. i havent even got my 3 articles for me to review!
2. SAWI, my 800 plus words essay. i got my point. but i didnt know what more to write to meet my 800 word count!
3. Practical test on week 5. Insertion of NG Tube, NG feeding and blood glucose thingy. please god, i wanna have blood glucose(!!!) no insertion.
4. I've limit understanding for FON. yes, its FON again.
5. All my saturdays are occupied. no more waking up late:(
6. Common tests are on week 7. its round the corner. coming soon! gosh:(
7. Common tests week falls at the end of UIP camp.
8. Logistic role are really stressful. or is it me who are stressing myself. but im really afraid to screw things up.
9. Attachment week straight after attachment week. and it seems like i can never have any proper, nice and long break till december!
10. I tend to skip lessons just because of ridiculous reasons, im tired! and that was so not suppose to happen in the first place please! unless i wanna be debart from exams uh.
(sigh) and so far, ive missed 2hours of nsl, late for 1hr30mins of nsl cos lessons are on early 0800. and im missing pharmoco lecture tmr and it get me a whole day free(!!!):D and thanks to kind Debbie for helping me to tap my card:D okay lets list out the things that im gonna do for tmr!
. SLEEP TILL EARLY NOON! at least a 12hours of sleep:D:D (brain will never function well without adequate hours of sleep alrights. hahhs)
. Study for AAP, CMBio, Pharmo and FON
. Done with SAWI
:D
21:06♥ 直到现在，我才真正的确定这一切都是自己一厢情愿罢了！虽然一开始就已经很明白，但是还是然自己给陷进去了！很笨吧？因为到头来，受伤的还是自己。希望自己不会被讨厌，还是朋友旧好了。真正的爱情到底是怎样的？那种感觉或许从来都没有拥有过，所以才更渴望能够拥有。真怀疑自己是否真的爱过，还是只是短暂的爱慕？人，往往都是在找寻能符合他们心目中的完美来填补自己的不完美所以才会爱慕与遐想。但是只要对那个人有了更进一步的了解后，发现了他的缺点与不完美，对于他的爱慕也会开始瓦解了吧。或许也是因为对方真的是太优秀了导致自己的自卑心作祟。这就是爱慕与爱情的差别吧。 在爱情里，不管对方的缺点是什么，在怎么的不完美，你还是会接受。不管对方的优点真的好到让你产生自卑心，你也都不会放弃。真的好渴望能够拥有一场属于自己的爱情，不用去羡慕他人。但还是顺其自然好了吧！未来的变数太多！其实呆呆的幻想着所有不可能发生的事情虽然很不切实际但真的会让人感到很幸福！可是也该是时候放手了吧。活在幻界太久，也该回到现实了吧！再见了！:D
11:30♥
im deeply in love with this phone E71! gosh! and my current phone really pissed me off to the max! damn it! kept restarting non stop! hate it! hate it! anw, its HALLOWEEN today!:D hehhs. sis and sec school kiddos are having their year break. jealous! i wanted my break too though ive just ended mine:( hahhs.
20:18♥ ITS WEEKEND TMR! :D
Know what, after this long week, how i would really wish that i could just let my precious saturday and sunday pass just by stucking myself on my cosy bed and sleep the whole day long instead of dragging myself out of bed for unimportant stuffs. and beauty sleep is really important for girls especially! but that is only if i could(!!!) cos im so dead now. FON lesson today is uperb fun and hilarious. i swear! with ZhiYang as the entertainer of the day with his uperb ultra KUSO acting skills! some of us even laughed rolling off the chairs. our full time kai xin guo!:D had our first Soccer lesson today too. never expect it to be tiring cos it was only our first lesson. or perhaps, it was me who hadn't really been warming my body up for so long?! did those basic kickings and game. waited for the guys at the pool for dinner. soccer ends before their swimming lesson. bus-ed down to west mall for Pastamania with Sharlyn, ZhiYang, Fabian, Myron and Nas. Im officially broke for this month! gotten my next month allowance and i've promised myself to spend it really wisely. i've to make my pocket money grow by saving up instead of letting it shirnk... cos the feeling of being so pork when you still want to spend is really terrible:( thanks ZhiYang for his apple crumb pizza(: shopped around with ZhiYang and Fabian with Sharlyn for their swimming trunks fo their swimming lessons. Funny to see who guys actually chose their trunks:/ im tired, im tired, im tired! im sleeping now, im sleeping ow, im sleeping now!:O
22:47♥
am i gonna be so this dead for all mondays and tuesdays?! semester2 time table is really insanely inhumane. 10hours of school and i just merely had about 5-6hours of sleep to survive the whole long day. gosh! complaining and whining aren't the solution to problem. gotta get use to it soon. lectures are much more interesting this semester as compared to the previous with insane lecturers like Dr Ron, Mdm Aw and not forgetting, Dr Jyanthi(?) im in love with her lecture unlike the past when i really hated her lecture to the max. and it really gave me a great sense of satisfaction when i got the lecture crystal clear. for the first time in my poly life that i have been so attentive during lessons, i swear:D hehhs. Got soccer for SW cos i've no courage to try swimming:/ but Soccer sounds preetty cool i guess. had never thought that there will be a day when i will be down the greeny and muddy field running around it for a ball uh. hahhs but it wasn't a bad experience overall. looking forward to my first Soccer session this friday!:D highlight of today, 27october2009. went for my first blood donation! scary!:/ cos im not the one who initiate the idea and im not really keen with it. even at the point of filling up those application forms, i was still struggling. the worst of all, friends who initiate the idea are not eligible to donate either because of the need of parents consent or having contact with infectious patients weeks ago. probably, that was fate? time to return something back. and that was the thought that actually stopped me from struggling any further. afterall, blood donation wasn't really that scary as what i'd thought it was. its painless and its people who needs it more that i do gained(: the bandage that they offer are really preettttty(: hehhs. and if there's another of this chance, i will still go for it!
21:48♥ not feeling good at all, things aren't going on the right path which it was meant to be. everything is just so screwed! failed my duty as a daughter, a friend, a listener, a sister and a leader. living in my own world of lies. what more am i really good at? till now, im still unable to think of any! perhaps in the eyes of others, i should be really contented with the life that im having now instead of yeaping and complaining. but in fact, im not. not at all! if all chances and opportunities given would make me lose and sacrifice all my closest and loved ones, i will never, never, never go to that agreement! simply because they are so, so, so that important to me than anything elses. but now what about this, huge sacrifice that relates about your future for your loved ones?
21:15♥
