9feb. till then, i will get to know whether would my appeal be successful or not!:(

i really hate myself now. my attitude especially. i tend to be emotional and lose my patience very easily nowadays. especially towards my parents and sis (sorry!:/) i know they are the innocent one. they nags, cos they do care for me but sometimes, i just get irritated too easily. but i still wanna thanks them. for not interfering with the choices that i've made and give me the 100% freedom to choose whatever i want and giving me advices whenever i needs them the most. thanks. there have never been a moment like this where, i get to be so stress up thinking about my dreams, and things that i wanna do in my future. which these questions has never been in my mind before. and now, its really time to give a serious thought about it. job? i have no mood for jobs now. but i need money! (can money just fall from sky) hais:/ ohmy! im daydreaming again. and i cant believe that im spending a largeeeee amount of money just on roses! (heartaches) cos, its something that cant live longggg. redcross, im still trying to shake off the idea from a cadet to a vi. and would really wish to be a good leader!