Altered mental state related to confusion. I'm stuck in the middle of nowhere, where i've already made my first move but, i'm too afraid to make any further steps ahead, neither do i wanna retreat. Someone, sort this feeling out for me please. I'm i being too unrealistic to yearn for stuffs that was never meant to be mine, was i really timid or was I too greedy to ask for more? It takes time for courage to be build, but since I wasn't that courageous, why did i ever dug out these memories which will allowed it to trigger my emotions off. That was so much of asking for problem isn't it? And since, I've started this trouble, i shouldn't gave up without making any efforts and try. Hahhs, but it make me seems silly, really silly in holding on to such memories which doesnt even make any impact on him, which i believe he wont even remember an incident like this ever happened. We missed out so much of each other's life so what if we were to meet again? Those memories won't make any difference, it will only reflect on the distance which time/fate drew us apart. So what by the time, another disappointment? Couldn't believe im saying this for 'n' times

"Let nature take it's course, what meant to be will be"

The best quote that could bring me the biggest relieve now. I'm not leaving everything to fate, I'll throw in my own efforts, jab myself with overdosage of courage. Typing of this post did helped in lightening my mood(: (Hopeful/jovial/bubbly)